The best christmas present of all

Of course, God had sent his Son down to earth, and he was crucified. His crucification led to all of us being able to freely talk to God and as well cleanse us from our sins.

Christmas is of course, the birthday of our Lord, Jesus Christ! Happy Birthday!

And why this year's christmas present is the best out of all my 16 years?

Switchfoot is coming to Malaysia!

THANK YOU GOD!

Saturday, February 2
Venue TBD*
Kuala Lampur, Malaysia
On sale: January 1
Ticket info coming soon!

Oh noes. I might have to skip BB. =X

But I can't help being so freggin excited. =DDD


This is definitely on my to do list. Or my to GO list.

I hope to see some familiar faces there!

ohmyfreggingosh

Picture of the Day

Really stunned^ ^Elizabeth

This little girl just came screaming and hugged me.

Which reminds me. VBS is soon.


There are going to be a lot more kids like this one. Or worse. Kids that beat you.

I wonder thats what raising kids is all about, kids that hug you, beat you, scream at you, cry with you (cause you're so stressed).

Oh well, when the time comes, I'll probably know. =D

In the meantime, there's just about enough kids to keep a bunch of youths busy for our church's VBS this year.

Breakthrough

Among all expressions, the one I adore most is the sight of a smile. It is contagious, self-gratifying, best of all, a gift, that is free.

Sometimes I think
Like all I ever do
Is ask for things
Until I ask too much of you
But that's not the way (that's not the way)
I wanna live (I wanna live)
I need to change (I need to change)
But something's got to give
Yeah, something's got to

What brings a smile?

In my opinion, it is to give. To hope, to dream, to sacrifice, to empower others.

I want to give.

No one told me
How bad I need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived
To that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want
All you have to offer (to offer)
So I offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else

Thats what I'll do. I'll give.

Yeah I'll give give give (until there's nothing else)
Give my life (until it all runs out)
Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give

I believe thats my ambition, to help and give.



Thank you, God.

Hope and Desires

There is a difference between being an acquaintance and being a friend. An acquaintance is someone whose name you know, who you see every now and then, who you probably have something in common with and who you feel comfortable around.

It's a person that you can invite to your home and share things with. But they are people who you don't share your life with, whose actions sometimes you don't understand because you don't know enough about them.

On the other hand, a friend is someone you love. Not that you are "in love" with them, but you care about them and you think about them when they are not there. The people you are reminded of when you see something they might like, and you know this because you know them so well. They are the people whose pictures you have and whose faces are in your head regardless.

Friends are the people you feel safe around because you know they care about you. They call just to see how you are doing, because a friend doesn't need an excuse. They tell you the truth, the first time, and you do the same. You know that if you have a problem, they are there to listen.

Friends are the people who won't laugh at you or hurt you, and if they do hurt you they try hard to make it up to you. They are the people you love, regardless of whether you realize it.

Friends are the people you cried with when you got rejected from colleges and during the last song at the prom and at graduation. They are the people that when you hug them, you don't think about how long to hug and who's going to be the first one to let go.

Maybe they are the people that hold the rings at your wedding, or maybe they are the people who give you away at your wedding, or maybe they are the people you marry. Maybe they are the people who cry at your wedding because they are happy or because they are proud.

They are the people who stop you from making mistakes and help you when you do. They are are the people whose hand you can hold, or you can hug or give them a kiss and not have it be awkward because they understand the things you do and they love you for them.

They stick with you and stand by you. They hold your hand. They watch you live and you watch them live and you learn from them. Your life is not the same without them.

Friend And Acquaintance
by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the Courage to change the things I can; and the Wisdom to know the difference.

30, 60 Minutes worth of your time

Just before you watch this, make sure there is absolutely nothing to disturb you within this period of time.


Jennifer Lin, 14 (2004) musical prodigy. (Piano)




Sirena Huang, 11 (2006) musical prodigy. (Violin)

I Want You To Know

And day lights, craving
Sunshine on this frozen heart
I am wishing you well
Wondering how you are

If you and I are going under
Maybe we can both recover
And find forgiveness for each other
Even if this is goodbye

And time heals
But these scars keep on tearing us apart
And sometimes ending is the only place to start

If you and I are going under (going under)
Maybe we can both recover (we can recover)
And find forgiveness for each other
Even if this is goodbye

Is goodbye, is goodbye, is goodbye, is goodbye, is goodbye...

If you and I are going under
Maybe we can both recover
And find forgiveness for each other
Even if

If what we had is really over
If fate is out there we discover
Let's find forgiveness for each other
Even if this is goodbye

Lifehouse - If This Is Goodbye

Insensitivity

You know the truth, you found out. I told myself to let it go.

All I wanted for you was to aknowledge me as a friend. I understand you have your issues, I try to help. Maybe I shouldn't, since it usually ends abruptly, or silently, never pleasantly.

I've known you not for too long, but long enough for you to know me as well. But it doesn't seem to matter when all I can do is stand in the the sidelines and watch you crash.

I've tried and I've tried. I apologised many times.

I say things I don't realize it meant something. Please don't hate me for that.

I want to give up.

I want to start over move on.





But I don't think we need to until you want too as well.

Something interesting

TED stands for Technology, Entertainment, Design. It started out (in 1984) as a conference bringing together people from those three worlds. Since then its scope has become ever broader.

It's easier if you check the links from here, about TED, TEDBlog, TED Conferences.

If you are just bored, cure boredom and learn something new by checking out the videos on all their speakers at the conference. You won't be disappointed. Heck, there are even entertainers, a fine example would be the video posted below:

This is Rives;
His poem,
Mockingbird. (TED Conference 2006)




Each year, the world’s leading thinkers and doers gather in Monterey, California for an event many describe as the highlight of their year. Attendees have called it “The ultimate brain spa,” "Davos for optimists" and “A four-day journey into the future, in the company of those creating it.” This event is called TED, and it’s truly a conference like no other.

"It was incredible." Malcolm Gladwell
"A mind-opening experience." Amy Tan
"One of the highlights of my entire life." Billy Graham
"I've never experienced anything remotely like it." Jeffrey Katzenberg
"The combined IQ of the attendees is incredible." Bill Gates

Spread their mission. Ideas.

4 am and sidetracked; train off tracks

I looked at my BM paper. Flipped it several times looking throughly to decide which to answer first. (It was the essay paper, so I randomly picked one) After 10 minutes of staring blankly thinking of what to write, sentences in english start to form in my head. Sentences like, 'How do I bloody translate the whole essay into BM in my mind when all I ever think about is the english sentence in my head??"

I tried and I tried. Words began to form on paper, then came the string of sentences. Really broken and short ones. Finally, I am able to start the 'pendahuluan'. It wasn't long before I was stuck again, which was utterly frustrating.

I'm in Form 4 and the problem is that I still can't fully write a proper BM essay, nor can I do their 'pemahaman' well. (Grammar, in BM) It's a miracle that I got a B for my BM during PMR. In fact, I was stunned I got a B man, I thought I would get like what, a C? Fail would be out of the question since I actually put some effort into memorising pendahuluans for most of the essays just for PMR. xD


Totally related, but not necessary,

There is a story in the bible, where there was a time when mankind actually spoke only ONE language, they decided to build a magnificent tower, which would reach up to the heavens. God saw that, and decided to confuse the languages of all the men building on the tower, so that they may not continue. And so He did.

Explaination on why God did it, here.

Who's freggin idea was to build the dumb tower in the first place?

Why do I gotta learn 2 languages man, it's so not my thing. I suck at languages.

Fine. I live in Malaysia, thats why I gotta.


Nothing much I can do except try and improve. Saya cubalah berblog dengan bahasa melayu. Saya dengar dari kawan saya macam ini dapat memperluaskan vocabulari saya dlm BM.


Well that sucked. Stress getting to me.

v=u+at

NaCrO4

Cleavage Furrow

y=mx+c

addddmatthhhgahhhhhh



I got to stop doing that. I'll just post some pictures then. Might have a story to tell.

This is when we all decided to celebrate Lauren's birthday, unfortunately the other NCOs of BB2SJ did not decided to crash. Hahaha!

Ben

Striking resemblence toooo...

Batman's Joker

I dunno. Maybe it's just me. The really wide smile.
Haha.

He even has his very own striking lala pose!
(Taught by none other than, miss Lauren Chia!)


Then we have... Jon

I am so proud of my artistic camera skills.

This is the gang.

And the best of all,
Su Teng kena cream by Jon!

Next is the NIE project, together with my school friends:

Dana showing off how to make loose shirts fit. (Model, Teri)

Dana: You did whattt??
(Sya just staring off into space, Teri daydreaming about Abang. Mahesh just plain blur.)

Entitled: Colours of Malaysia (One of our poster designs)

Poster Number 2! I love this design most out of all the others.

Poster No 3, Monopoly concept

Unfortunately for Eden, we didn't get chosen to go to UK.

Kelab Persaudaraan Belia Kristian

Blues among the hue

Ms Liew giving a speech.. or something.

CF Committee '06

It's always nice to look out the window
And see those very first few flakes of snow
And later on we can go outside
And create the impression of an angel that just fell from the sky

When February rolls around I'll roll my eyes
Turn a cold shoulder to these even colder skies
And by the fire my heart it heaves a sigh
For the green grass waiting on the other side

It's always winter but never Christmas
It seems this curse just can't be lifted
Yet in the midst of all this ice and snow
Our hearts stay warm cause they are filled with hope

It'd be so nice to look out the window
And see the leaves on the trees begin to show
The birds would congregate and sing
A song of birth a song of newer things

The wind would calm and the sun would shine
I'd go outside and I'd squint my eyes
But for now I will simply just withdraw
Sit here and wait for this world to thaw

And everything it changed overnight
This dying world you brought it back to life
And deep inside I felt things
Shifting everything was melting
Away oh away
And you gave us the most beautiful of days

Cause when it's always winter but never Christmas
Sometimes it feels like you're not with us
But deep inside our hearts we know
That you are here and we will not lose hope

Relient K - In Like a Lion (Always Winter)

I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet you love me
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
you touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
as I exhale I hear your voice
and I answer you, though I heardly make a noise
and from my lips the words I choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
because I love you
oh God, I love you
and life is now worth living
if only because of you
and when they say I'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I life my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
cause you'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to life me up again

Relient K - When I Go Down

Tag-gged by Buh-hen.

Seven things to be done before my death.
1. Get a girlfriend
2. Get baptised
3. Play in a band with an audience
4. Speak/preach in front of an audience
5. Master at least 5 instruments
6. Tour the world with someone
7. Get married

Seven things I will NOT do even if it kills me.
1. Let my relationship with God die down
2. Break contacts with my parents or siblings
3. Die a bachelor
4. BE GHEY (I will never turn homo)
5. Commit adultery or premarital sex
6. Suicide (Ironic isn't it)
7. Question the laws of physics

Seven things I do when I'm away from the public.
1. Take a shower
2. Zone out with my music
3. Stone with my music
4. Do my homework (cause i never do it anyway)
5. Miss call random people
6. Sleep (in class doesn't count?)
7. Plot total world domination

Seven fav sentences/quotes.
1. You suck, man
2. Fish you, man
3. You loser!
4. Hey you!
5. Drag a particular person's name (eg: lauuureeeeeeeennn!)
6. Giler bodoh la you
7. Oi!

Seven favourite songs from all time
1. So Much Love - The Rocket Summer
2. Only Hope - Switchfoot
3. Save - The Rocket Summer
4. (*Fin) - Anberlin
5. 23 - Jimmy Eat World
6. Deathbed - Relient K
7. Majesty - Delirious?

Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did.
1. Format my hard drive ( I will personally throw you out the window)
2. Assult me
3. Rob me of my pride and anything I care or stand for
4. Telling me I can't do things I know I can
5. Cause harm to any of my loved ones
6. Act all punk-ass with me
7. Ingnorance

Seven Two people to tag.
1. Aileen
2. Beckeyh Choy


Taken from Grace punya friend: Lynn

Opening Credits: High Life Scenery - The Rocket Summer
Waking Up: Awakening - Switchfoot
First Day At School: My Evil Plan To Save The World - Five Iron Frenzy
Falling In Love: I'm Taking You With Me - Relient K
Breaking Up: What Goes Around... Comes Around - Justin Timberlake
Life's Ok: Waiting On The World To Change - John Mayer
Mental Breakdown: Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park
Driving: 23 - Jimmy Eat World
Flashback: Only Hope - Switchfoot
Getting Back Together: Grace Kelly - Mika
Wedding Scene: Parent's Prayer - Steven Curtis Chapman
Birth of Child: Daughters - John Mayer
Final Battle: Everything - Lifehouse
Death Scene: Happy Birthday - Flipsyde
Funeral Song: Yesterdays - Switchfoot
End Credits: Burn Out Bright - Switchfoot


Signing out.

Hey there, stranger

I don't know you anymore. I really don't.



*Saves as drafts*

*Accidentally clicks publish post*


"Oh shit."

Nights and Randomness

;P

I'm really missing you right now. Although you might not know.

Ahh so random.

Wondering what you're up to?

You're always full of work. Work all day, work all night.

Hmm.

Learn to chill man.

Hahaha.

No time to talk ah? Laaaaaaaaaaaaa.

;(

Maybe next time.

Cheers!

Relient K, Jefferson Aeroplane

if it hurts,
kiss it better
you wear skirts,
i write nice letters
never said nothing with flowers
though we always talked for hours
and it seems to get much colder
when you cry on your own shoulder
and we know the show
must go on
guess i know
i guess i'll throw on

some jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows
jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder
i feel much better
when i cry on my own shoulder
i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a change of heart, a change of clothes
and when i'm home, i think i'll go eat cereal and stare out the window

i'll make the calls
you cover your ears
niagra falls
still flows on new year's
i will save
your plunging neck-line
kiss your face
you try to deck mine
if i behave it's going to cost him
stop the rave in downtown boston
and we know the show
must go on
guess i know
i guess i'll throw on

some jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows
jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder
i feel much better
when i cry on my own shoulder
i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood
and my ego, the status quo, provides me with a decent attitude
and i'll go to undergo a change of heart, a change of clothes
and when i'm home, i'll think i'll go eat cereal and stare out the window

cause you confused me more than anyone
an adjustment has begun
to let me feel the desperate need to leave what we undid undone
and maybe you could sympathize
with the bags under my eyes
and we'll see the signs are saying that we have used up all our (tries)
try to be a better person
to be a better friend
to be a better son

he tries to be a better someone
that understands the difference
and that he can't show all the people all the things that really mean as much as he could (feel)
feels like i don't remember
ever being this tired (before)
before now my eyes were closed to all of the beauty in this world

jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows
jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder
i feel much better
when i cry on my own shoulder
i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood
and my ego, the status quo, provides me with a decent attitude
and i'll go to undergo a change of heart, a change of clothes
and i'll go, oh yes, i'll go and hope the new me shows so everybody knows
that i've found myself able to fly away without magic feathers or jefferson aero planes
i've got with me all that i need

Don't check back till August.

apology and regret

A great deal of what formed my personality today is because of the countless amazing people who gave me strength, support and most of all, a purpose in living this life that I have. I have often regret things I've done, what I'm doing or what I might do, despite knowing the consequences that also comes with those actions.

Sometimes by looking though the eyes of another person helps to know oneself better. I never thought that I would actually hear people telling me I was a loudmouthed jerk when I was young, but maybe, this is what I should be hearing years ago.

Life experiences, changes. Might be for better, might be for worse. More often it becomes a roller coaster ride, swirling you into unexpected twists and turns, wondering when it will be over. So often we get engrossed with the wildness of the ride, never realizing the danger that might destroy the things that we care about. But the wonderful thing about ourselves is that we are able to pick up the pieces after we crash. Some say this is a part of growing up, forming your true personality. But I wonder why we still feel hurt even if the same things happen.

It's very often I looked back on the past and think, what if, I never did this or did that? Or if I did that? Would I be better off that way? Even so, every scenario seemed like a scene from a scary movie, it's never pleasant.

Not many people realize that I don't have many close friends, most of the time it's pretty lonely, and as well painful watching others happily talking away with their buddies. But I am grateful for the friends I have now, even if we don't see each other often, but we have the kind of friendship that some people spend their lifetime searching for.

There comes a time where love comes in and messes up everything for you. Maybe I'm not too good with love, I don't know. But there is one thing I do know; love is not meant to be kept inside. I just feel like crap thinking about this girl, always trying to get her attention, doing things for her and all. But isn't that what most guys do anyway? But do they feel the kind of crap I'm feeling right now? What good is it if she doesn't notice anyway. All I ever do is feel sorry for myself.

I have admitted to a few girls that I liked them before, but turns out, most of it ruined a part of our friendship. But if I don't just say it......sigh. I don't wanna think of the things I would do.

I'm blogging all of this to ensure as a reminder for this to never happen again (I hope). To the readers, most of it does not make any sense. But to me it's like re-watching the scene in my head again on slow-mo.

I bear hatred in me. I bear the pain in my heart. I hold back the tears.

But I just wanna let go. I can't.

God held my tongue

I was gonna spell it out
In detail but
I dropped the call
Before I spilled my guts
The floor stayed clean
Like my conscience would be
'Cause if you heard anything
You didn't hear it from me

I'm sweeping up the seconds
That tick off the clock
Save them all for later
When I'm too ticked to talk
And I need some time
To search my mind
To locate the words
That seem so hard to find

And sometimes I say things that
I wish that I could take back
The most crucial thing I lack is the thing called "tact"
And if your hour's so intently listening
Then the smartest thing to say
Is to tell myself not to say a thing

Yeah I gotta keep quiet quiet
Don't let it all come undone
'Cause if I dare open my mouth
It'll just be to bite my tongue
To bit my tongue

I said I'm always close-minded
With an open mouth
And the worst of me
Seems to come right out
But I've never broken bones
With a stone or a stick
But I've conjured up a phrase
That can cut to the quick

And sometimes I say things that
I wish that I could take back
And the smartest thing to say
Is to tell myself to keep

Quiet quiet
Don't let it all come undone
'Cause if I dare open my mouth
It'll just be to bite my tongue
Yeah I gotta keep quiet quiet
Listen to your voice
Because the power of your words
Can repair all that I destroyed

And when I finally do
Let it come from you
The peace of understanding grips my soul
You're the reason I
Have meaning in this life
Is so I swallow all my pride
And give you control
I give it all to you

And I gotta keep quiet quiet
Don't let it all come undone
'Cause if I dare open my mouth
It'll just be to bite my tongue
I gotta keep quiet quiet
Listen to your voice
Because the power of your words
Can repair all that I destroyed
And I gotta keep quiet quiet
Don't let it all come undone
'Cause if I dare open my mouth
It'll just be to bite my tongue
Bite my tongue

Give

No one told me
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
Cuz how much
Is too much
To give you
Well I may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else

Yeah I'll give give give (until there's nothing else)
Give my life (until it all runs out)
Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give

No one told me
How bad I need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived
To that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want
All you have to offer (to offer)
So I offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else

And I'll give give give (until there's nothing else)
Give my life (until it all runs out)

Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left to
Give give give (until there's nothing else)
Give my life (until it all runs out)
Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left

Sometimes I think
Like all I ever do
Is ask for things
Until I ask too much of you
But that's not the way (that's not the way)
I wanna live (I wanna live)
I need to change (I need to change)
But something's got to give
Yeah something's got to

Give give give (until there's nothing left)
Give my life (until it all runs out)
Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left to give
Give give give (until there's nothing left)
Give my life (until it all runs out)
Give give
Give until there's nothing left
I'll give

Yesterdays

Remember that movie taken from a comic book called The Amazing Spider-Man?

Yesterdays - Switchfoot

Flowers cut and brought inside
Black cars in a single line
Your family in suits and ties
And you're free

The ache I feel inside
Is where the life has left your eyes
I'm alone for our last goodbye
But you're free

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday
I still can't believe you're gone, oh...
I remember you like yesterday, yesterday
And until I'm with you, I'll carry on

Adrift on your ocean floor
I feel weightless, numb, and sore
A part of you in me is torn
And you're free

I woke from a dream last night
I dreamt that you were by my side
Reminding me I still had life
In me

I'll carry on
Every lament is a love song
Yesterday, yesterday
I still can't believe you're gone
So long my friend, so long

Losing someone close to you, you don't realize they love you so dearly until they are gone. For Peter, it was his uncle Ben. The pain Peter felt, to know he could have stopped his uncle's death, sometimes it was better off not knowing right?

Maybe his guilt wouldn't be there.

Just revenge. Hatred.

What if Peter did have his revenge? He killed his uncle's killer. Who does he have to hate now? Hate, unfortunately doesn't just disappear gradually. It slowly consumes, and it consumes. Until there is only that hatred, the hatred for nothing.


The song says, 'Reminding me I still had life, In me'.

If you're feeling down/lonely/upset, think of the great times of the past you've had. Re-live the moment in your head.

I still can't believe you're gone.

Merry New Year

'Tomorrow's the first day of school and I haven't gotten my school books yet!' - Me

Out with the old and in with the new, some people would say. But I'm not like some people, I loved 2006. Now I wished that I treasured the time more. What the heck, the time has passed and it's time to welcome the new year!

2007, take away the 2 and you get a double-oh-seven.

They should have released another bond movie this year.

Goodbye, Class of '06.

Goodbye PMR, I don't miss you and I never will.

Goodbye F3 text books, my sister is definitely going to destroy ya'll if I didn't.

Goodbye, my broken acoustic. ;_;

Goodbye to whom I've been. Don't come back.


Something I got myself while I was at canaanland. =D I love it soooo much.

Front Cover of MMHMM

On the inside

Back

I look forward to their new release this year, Five Score and Seven Years Ago.

7 Hours left on the clock.