I never really said thank you.

When i thought you weren't there, you were there crying with me.

You were there to uplift me in times of depression.

You washed my feet even when i've washed none.

You blessed me even when i don't deserve your love.

I'm not worthy.

I am so sorry.

But it's getting so hard, you know?

These temptations keep coming back

Its so difficult to stand up again.

Sometimes it just consumes

And i forget:

Who i am,

Who i will be.

But i become who i was.

This is all i can say right now.

I know this is not much, but i need preseverence.

When can i finally let it all go?

When will it stop hurting?

Why won't it?