Insensitivity

You know the truth, you found out. I told myself to let it go.

All I wanted for you was to aknowledge me as a friend. I understand you have your issues, I try to help. Maybe I shouldn't, since it usually ends abruptly, or silently, never pleasantly.

I've known you not for too long, but long enough for you to know me as well. But it doesn't seem to matter when all I can do is stand in the the sidelines and watch you crash.

I've tried and I've tried. I apologised many times.

I say things I don't realize it meant something. Please don't hate me for that.

I want to give up.

I want to start over move on.





But I don't think we need to until you want too as well.

Something interesting

TED stands for Technology, Entertainment, Design. It started out (in 1984) as a conference bringing together people from those three worlds. Since then its scope has become ever broader.

It's easier if you check the links from here, about TED, TEDBlog, TED Conferences.

If you are just bored, cure boredom and learn something new by checking out the videos on all their speakers at the conference. You won't be disappointed. Heck, there are even entertainers, a fine example would be the video posted below:

This is Rives;
His poem,
Mockingbird. (TED Conference 2006)




Each year, the world’s leading thinkers and doers gather in Monterey, California for an event many describe as the highlight of their year. Attendees have called it “The ultimate brain spa,” "Davos for optimists" and “A four-day journey into the future, in the company of those creating it.” This event is called TED, and it’s truly a conference like no other.

"It was incredible." Malcolm Gladwell
"A mind-opening experience." Amy Tan
"One of the highlights of my entire life." Billy Graham
"I've never experienced anything remotely like it." Jeffrey Katzenberg
"The combined IQ of the attendees is incredible." Bill Gates

Spread their mission. Ideas.

4 am and sidetracked; train off tracks

I looked at my BM paper. Flipped it several times looking throughly to decide which to answer first. (It was the essay paper, so I randomly picked one) After 10 minutes of staring blankly thinking of what to write, sentences in english start to form in my head. Sentences like, 'How do I bloody translate the whole essay into BM in my mind when all I ever think about is the english sentence in my head??"

I tried and I tried. Words began to form on paper, then came the string of sentences. Really broken and short ones. Finally, I am able to start the 'pendahuluan'. It wasn't long before I was stuck again, which was utterly frustrating.

I'm in Form 4 and the problem is that I still can't fully write a proper BM essay, nor can I do their 'pemahaman' well. (Grammar, in BM) It's a miracle that I got a B for my BM during PMR. In fact, I was stunned I got a B man, I thought I would get like what, a C? Fail would be out of the question since I actually put some effort into memorising pendahuluans for most of the essays just for PMR. xD


Totally related, but not necessary,

There is a story in the bible, where there was a time when mankind actually spoke only ONE language, they decided to build a magnificent tower, which would reach up to the heavens. God saw that, and decided to confuse the languages of all the men building on the tower, so that they may not continue. And so He did.

Explaination on why God did it, here.

Who's freggin idea was to build the dumb tower in the first place?

Why do I gotta learn 2 languages man, it's so not my thing. I suck at languages.

Fine. I live in Malaysia, thats why I gotta.


Nothing much I can do except try and improve. Saya cubalah berblog dengan bahasa melayu. Saya dengar dari kawan saya macam ini dapat memperluaskan vocabulari saya dlm BM.


Well that sucked. Stress getting to me.

v=u+at

NaCrO4

Cleavage Furrow

y=mx+c

addddmatthhhgahhhhhh



I got to stop doing that. I'll just post some pictures then. Might have a story to tell.

This is when we all decided to celebrate Lauren's birthday, unfortunately the other NCOs of BB2SJ did not decided to crash. Hahaha!

Ben

Striking resemblence toooo...

Batman's Joker

I dunno. Maybe it's just me. The really wide smile.
Haha.

He even has his very own striking lala pose!
(Taught by none other than, miss Lauren Chia!)


Then we have... Jon

I am so proud of my artistic camera skills.

This is the gang.

And the best of all,
Su Teng kena cream by Jon!

Next is the NIE project, together with my school friends:

Dana showing off how to make loose shirts fit. (Model, Teri)

Dana: You did whattt??
(Sya just staring off into space, Teri daydreaming about Abang. Mahesh just plain blur.)

Entitled: Colours of Malaysia (One of our poster designs)

Poster Number 2! I love this design most out of all the others.

Poster No 3, Monopoly concept

Unfortunately for Eden, we didn't get chosen to go to UK.

Kelab Persaudaraan Belia Kristian

Blues among the hue

Ms Liew giving a speech.. or something.

CF Committee '06

It's always nice to look out the window
And see those very first few flakes of snow
And later on we can go outside
And create the impression of an angel that just fell from the sky

When February rolls around I'll roll my eyes
Turn a cold shoulder to these even colder skies
And by the fire my heart it heaves a sigh
For the green grass waiting on the other side

It's always winter but never Christmas
It seems this curse just can't be lifted
Yet in the midst of all this ice and snow
Our hearts stay warm cause they are filled with hope

It'd be so nice to look out the window
And see the leaves on the trees begin to show
The birds would congregate and sing
A song of birth a song of newer things

The wind would calm and the sun would shine
I'd go outside and I'd squint my eyes
But for now I will simply just withdraw
Sit here and wait for this world to thaw

And everything it changed overnight
This dying world you brought it back to life
And deep inside I felt things
Shifting everything was melting
Away oh away
And you gave us the most beautiful of days

Cause when it's always winter but never Christmas
Sometimes it feels like you're not with us
But deep inside our hearts we know
That you are here and we will not lose hope

Relient K - In Like a Lion (Always Winter)

I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet you love me
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
you touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
as I exhale I hear your voice
and I answer you, though I heardly make a noise
and from my lips the words I choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
because I love you
oh God, I love you
and life is now worth living
if only because of you
and when they say I'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I life my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
cause you'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to life me up again

Relient K - When I Go Down

Tag-gged by Buh-hen.

Seven things to be done before my death.
1. Get a girlfriend
2. Get baptised
3. Play in a band with an audience
4. Speak/preach in front of an audience
5. Master at least 5 instruments
6. Tour the world with someone
7. Get married

Seven things I will NOT do even if it kills me.
1. Let my relationship with God die down
2. Break contacts with my parents or siblings
3. Die a bachelor
4. BE GHEY (I will never turn homo)
5. Commit adultery or premarital sex
6. Suicide (Ironic isn't it)
7. Question the laws of physics

Seven things I do when I'm away from the public.
1. Take a shower
2. Zone out with my music
3. Stone with my music
4. Do my homework (cause i never do it anyway)
5. Miss call random people
6. Sleep (in class doesn't count?)
7. Plot total world domination

Seven fav sentences/quotes.
1. You suck, man
2. Fish you, man
3. You loser!
4. Hey you!
5. Drag a particular person's name (eg: lauuureeeeeeeennn!)
6. Giler bodoh la you
7. Oi!

Seven favourite songs from all time
1. So Much Love - The Rocket Summer
2. Only Hope - Switchfoot
3. Save - The Rocket Summer
4. (*Fin) - Anberlin
5. 23 - Jimmy Eat World
6. Deathbed - Relient K
7. Majesty - Delirious?

Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did.
1. Format my hard drive ( I will personally throw you out the window)
2. Assult me
3. Rob me of my pride and anything I care or stand for
4. Telling me I can't do things I know I can
5. Cause harm to any of my loved ones
6. Act all punk-ass with me
7. Ingnorance

Seven Two people to tag.
1. Aileen
2. Beckeyh Choy


Taken from Grace punya friend: Lynn

Opening Credits: High Life Scenery - The Rocket Summer
Waking Up: Awakening - Switchfoot
First Day At School: My Evil Plan To Save The World - Five Iron Frenzy
Falling In Love: I'm Taking You With Me - Relient K
Breaking Up: What Goes Around... Comes Around - Justin Timberlake
Life's Ok: Waiting On The World To Change - John Mayer
Mental Breakdown: Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park
Driving: 23 - Jimmy Eat World
Flashback: Only Hope - Switchfoot
Getting Back Together: Grace Kelly - Mika
Wedding Scene: Parent's Prayer - Steven Curtis Chapman
Birth of Child: Daughters - John Mayer
Final Battle: Everything - Lifehouse
Death Scene: Happy Birthday - Flipsyde
Funeral Song: Yesterdays - Switchfoot
End Credits: Burn Out Bright - Switchfoot


Signing out.